Nightmares/ Adjustments and Who Knows

I know that MA is a much better place for me to be living but I really hate adjustments. Right now I feel guilty and stupid about every decision I make. I have nightmares EVERY SINGLE night and I just can't shake them. It makes waking up stressful and I've waken up with a killer headache every single morning since I moved. I am depressed over Grampa, scared and depressed about where I am with my life and I am intimidated about what the heck my next moves will be. Ugh I hate this.